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Thursday, August 19, 2004

"Are you being choosy....You cant afford to be so choosy...Don't set any requirements...keep your options open...Forget about the past...dont lock your heart..."

I've heard these thousands of times, including today. FRUST!!! I am not being choosy. How can I be choosy when I don't even have several options to choose from! Or should I say not even one! which some people reacted with much disbelief. (Bukan nya jambu sangat aku ni!)

I understand their concern, but what can I do? Go up to each guy I see and say "Hi..can we go out?!"

It's funny how people look at me. Like, I am too busy with work to even socialise, etc. I do...I go out with my friends, colleagues and spend time with my family. That's my social life.

I know, generally people think that it's "time" to at least be attached. And that it's better to be married before 30years old to avoid any complications in pregnancy, might be labelled "andartu", etc. Tapi kita merancang, Tuhan Yg menentukan right? Cliche but so true! My mum doesn't even pressurise me, or worry about me.

I do admit that sometimes, it does get into me...the pressure, looking at people around me with their dramatic beautiful love stories. The kind of feeling that you wish you had one story to tell. (well i do...mine's a "sandiwara" according to some of my friends!) But I've learnt cos each has a unique life of their own. Kalau semua sama, boringlah dunia ni!

Alhamdulillah, the 2 years have made me a stronger and a more independent person. Should whatever had happened, had never happened, I might still be the weakling, dependent, super sensitive & emotional me.

Each person in this world, go through different story lines. There isnt a specific life cycle which indicates the diff stages like I must be attached/engaged at 24, be married at 26, have kids by 29, etc. Life's a roller coaster (quoted from a song by Ronan Keating?). I have been "up" before, then "down" and then "up" again.

Everything happens for a reason. Probably, He doesnt want me to meet someone now,
because it's not the right time yet. Probably because I'm not at my best - emotionally, financially, spiritually. He knows best : )

naniz @ 10:56:00 PM

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