Sunday, December 10, 2006
//REVISITING A PAST//
Stepping into a once familiar place, into a distant past, was indeed a moment of sheer awkwardness. Familiar faces everywhere, a few with whom I've never spoken more than a word or two. And others, whom I've shared tears with before. Accompanied by a warmth presence did well in comforting that things would just be alright. But that calmness I enjoyed was a fleeting moment.
An almost forgotten face, remembers me and my name. Gave me a welcoming hug, an acknowledgement that once I was in her life. Even though with her, it was briefly a few days in my life. Addressing herself with endearment, I felt as though I was once a part of a family which I never had. Apparently, photos were treasured for keepsake. Indeed, I felt honoured.
Witnessing the opening of a new chapter in a person's life, can't help but felt, probably like how a mother would feel, reminiscing a past of him growing up, and then letting it free as simply... memories. I pray for their happiness and for ours. InsyaAllah Amin.
As expected, time to go was harder. Received a pat on my shoulder for my triumph from someone whom I regard as a sister. Then, I bid goodbye to the almost forgotten face, with parting words from her, for me to visit her some day and to always remember her.
Lastly but certainly not the least, the most important and dearest person to me in that room, walked me out of the room right to the front doorstep...I think cos afraid of overwhelmed emotions. She said she was glad I could be present at the event. Gave me a rather long, comforting hug, telling me that she knew it was an awkward moment for me.
Friendship built over the years stayed concrete, though there were broken paths along the way. Rebuilt but in a different structure altogether. Status changes, but the foundation we laid down was never wasted. Alhamdulillah. Despite one broken chain, I'm glad I still manage to keep the main pillars intact - Silaturrahim.
I entered with an uneasy and dont-know-what-to-expect feeling but left comforted with much love, empathy, appreciation and warmth. I have always been envious of others who meet the right person from the beginning and to be able to spend their lives together forever. Spared of life's complications and ironies. But my past, though gone and can't be owned, made me who I am right now. And I never regretted that. To quote from Khai, "the past leaves a trail for the present, and the present paves a path for the future."
To the warmth presence, my present and a future (InsyaAllah Amin) , thank you for rendering the emotional support and understanding. And for never failing to stay beside me and grabbing me before I fall.
naniz @ 10:06:00 PM